Know your Enemy

At Dr. Fisher’s office, his nurse, Paula, weighs me and takes a blood pressure reading. It’s so alarming, she takes it again. Still high. Normally, it’s in the healthy range. Normally, I don’t worry quite so much. Maybe the discussion on surgery will calm me down. Dr....

What’s it Mean?

https://media.giphy.com/media/l2Je66zG6mAAZxgqI/giphy.mp4   On our first date, my late husband Tom talked about cancer the whole time. It almost did him in; I’d come away bored and depressed. He’d taken me to an Italian place, nice enough to have white tablecloths—on...

Hiking for my Life

Bob and I are signed up to lead a snowshoe for our hiking club today. Everyone would understand if we cancelled, but I want to put boundaries around cancer. I’m not going to concede snowshoeing and hiking, they’re what make me feel alive, and maybe even strong. When...

Lumpectomy or Mastectomy?

Lumpectomy or Mastectomy? If I focus on one problem at a time, maybe I can do this. The Breast Center emailed me a video which cheerfully explains the choice, with detailed pros and cons, and what to expect from each procedure. The video shows animated breast pictures...

Getting the News

My phone rings early and I feel a visceral shudder race from heart to stomach. Caller ID shows it’s the surgeon, Dr. Fisher calling. That can only mean one thing. Remember the drama exercise where the leader calls out “freeze,” and then you switch to a different...