My Worst Phobia

Photo by Jaclyn Moy on Unsplash Bob has read up on radiation mapping, the goal of the planning session, and warns it might be scary for me. I knew I would be positioned under the radiation machine to determine the optimal path for the radiation beams. I knew the path...

Travel Plans

Photo by Imthaz Ahamed on Unsplash It’s bad with Carol. She’s 2800 miles from family and friends and she can’t even sit up, let alone walk. Lisa flew out when it happened, but in another week, she’s scheduled to take a cruise to Hawaii to celebrate her 25th wedding...

Ready for Battle

Today I’m meeting my oncologist, Dr. Ormsby. I’m convinced that he wants me to have chemo without further testing, so I don’t plan to like him. I’m ready for a battle. It doesn’t help that he has the most earnest face. He’s tall and very young-looking and hand-bumps...

To Chemo or not to Chemo

jens-johnsson-415903-unsplash.jpg What’s next? The tumor has been excised and good riddance to it, but it was step one of several. The big decision now is whether to get chemo. A breast cancer tumor by itself won’t kill anyone, no matter how big it gets, so long as it...

Harden the F up

I’m back where I don’t want to be, stretched out on a hospital bed, gown open, this time the transducer is circling the other breast, the one that has been spared so far. The screen to my left displays a grainy gray image. The tech has called in the radiologist to...

At Least You only have Two

  Photo by Jesse Echevarria on Unsplash I took off my bandages today and was permitted to shower. My breast is a riot of color like a fiery purple-skied sunset. The scar near my underarm isn’t bad, a straight line of about two inches. But the other one, a c-shape,...