Post Surgery

When I wake, I’m facing a work area with curtains to my sides. It’s an odd feeling to find you’ve been moved while unconscious. It reminds me of being a little kid and falling asleep in the car on the way home from my grandparents’. I would become dimly aware of being...

Pre-Surgery

Bob and I are up early; check-in time is 6:30 AM. I’m not allowed to eat, but mercifully, black coffee is permitted. I feel more resigned than apprehensive. Since I have to do this, let’s get it done. I’m so rarely up this early that it feels other-worldly to be...

Beach Vacation?

There are eight buildings in this complex, but I haven’t figured out where they put the numbers. I drive the wide arc from one end to the other, looking for #2, squinting at each building, but when I arrive at #8—the only well-signed one in the bunch—it’s time to turn...

Later that same Day…

https://media.giphy.com/media/l0HlCqV35hdEg2GUo/giphy.mp4 If my blood pressure reading was off the charts at my appointment, I wonder how it fared afterward? Just as I got home, Dr. Fisher’s nurse called. “You need to get an MRI before the surgery,” she said. Paula...

Know your Enemy

At Dr. Fisher’s office, his nurse, Paula, weighs me and takes a blood pressure reading. It’s so alarming, she takes it again. Still high. Normally, it’s in the healthy range. Normally, I don’t worry quite so much. Maybe the discussion on surgery will calm me down. Dr....

What’s it Mean?

https://media.giphy.com/media/l2Je66zG6mAAZxgqI/giphy.mp4   On our first date, my late husband Tom talked about cancer the whole time. It almost did him in; I’d come away bored and depressed. He’d taken me to an Italian place, nice enough to have white tablecloths—on...